Just a rant to let out some feelings...you dont have to read

So I figured...I am in an odd mood right now so I guess I should write about it and try to get it out there. I apologize if this makes no seance this is just me rambling on.

Ok so first of all. I feel like I am in a depression at times. All I do is sit at home and do nothing. This all started with ___ stopping talking to me. I find myself telling myself that she will get over it and come back. My other friend even tells me the same thing but I cant help but feel this way, and it sucks.

Then there is the fact that I like him...I like him a lot but he lives so far away and it just sucks.

I just want to live a normal life...I want to be happy...the only times I truly feel happy is online and with work people but once that is over all I want to do it sleep or draw myself into a fictional world of Doctor Who.

Part of me does not even want to make my video today because I am in such a shitty mood but I must cuz it might be the only fun thing that comes out of today.

So yeah life sucks big deal...I feel like a little emo teen right now. I'm more mature than this.

grrrrrrr!!!

My brain is telling me not to post this because I don't want sympathy but I know I will.

Guess I'm going to go sit here and do nothing again.

O well...this was fun.

Skype People

~You are one of my best friends and I love talking to you all the time. I am honored that you enjoy talking to me even though I know you hate the phone. And nothing you say is awkward I totally joke about that.

~I am so glad that Adam introduced us. You two are great and I love playing random games of draw my thing with you!

~I really wish that we talked more because you are awesome! We should skype more often.

~I am really upset that you don’t want to be friends anymore and I don’t know what I am going to do with out you. You are my sister and I love you.

~You are always there for me and I love you! I can not wait until March so we can party it up!

~I am sad because we have lost touch. We used to be so close but ever since the project ended we don’t chat as much.

~You are my Oz buddy and you rock!!!! I am so happy Adam introduced us

~ would never tell you this in person but I am totally crushing on you and it sucks cuz you live so far away.

~I love your accent but most of all I love you even if u are a fode-bode.

~You are pretty awesome I wish I could find a way to do what you do. You are deff and inspiration for me.

~I loved hanging with you IRL we need to do it again soon!!

~I love you soo much!!! I have a gift for you still I just need to find time to send it!

~I really liked you a ton over the summer…then we stopped talking…what happened?

~You are one of my best friends and I love you! I feel like I can tell you anything and I pretty much do! Thanks for always being there.